måndag

early morning
smell of cigarettes,
fresh laundry
and of plants
being ripped off
of the earth.

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voices

Today is one of my close friend’s birthday. We have both entered our 30s and we live in different parts of the world. We chat occasionally but I haven’t heard her voice or seen her in person for a long time. And when I try to remember her voice, she doesn’t say anything specific…she just mumbles or argues about something but is laughing at the same time. In fact, every time I think of any friend, they are not saying anything, they are simply making incoherent noises in my head and are strangely smiling too.

Is it because I have forgotten what we have spoken about or is it because I haven’t heard their voices in such a long time or both?

These fine lines

These fine lines

while i have been drawing and writing very little lately, here is a project that i actually completed recently. it is the cover illustration for the book of poems ‘These Fine Lines: Poems of Restraint and Abandon’ put together by the Word Warriors team in Nepal. i was nicely surprised by the opportunity to contribute with a drawing and i am happy that i was able to be a part of the book, even though i am not living in kathmandu at the moment.

it was a challenging task for me to read through the poems and to come up with something that could relate to several poems, but also be mysterious on its own. i made several versions, experimenting with the color, the layout as well as the title placement. it was a learning experience for me to draw everything digitally – i usually hand draw, color and then scan the drawing. i have always had a hard time choosing colors digitally because you have hundreds of choices and that makes me really confused. i like to stick to the comfort of a color pencil box with only 12 colors…hahahhaha….so this was super difficult in many ways for me and so many indecisive hours were spent staring at the drawing. :) thanks to the word warriors team for all their patience.

well, here’s to poetry and to hopefully, more book illustration opportunities for me. :P

stale thoughts, stale verses

I.
i met a lost glove, sometime ago,
at the bottom of the stairs –
the one that takes me down to road,
the one where the girl slipped and fell, a few days before.

then i met a broken umbrella
stuffed into a bin at the bus stop.
although, it couldn’t tell me for sure,
i silently hoped that it had seen better days.

II.
there’s hardly any trace of last week’s snow left on the streets,
just heaps and lumps grazed off and gathered onto the sides.

III.
hiunma hamro neelo lamo chayya
afumai ramaudai nachdai chann
paglanu bhanda agadi, hami kehi samjhana
khaltima jamma garna khojdai chau.

IV.
the morning sun
makes shadows on
the white wall.
orange blue and grey.
this warmth could never
fill me enough though.
not here.
not in here.

V.
if only writing it down
a thousand times
would actually empty it off
of all it’s meanings.

it does not matter.
det spelar ingen roll.

i would sit, head bowed
if these words were to
become true.

i could empty
my heart and mind
but what of hearts and minds
that are not my own?

VI.
the thought of stepping outside is enough to make me frown, but who says i can’t admire the pretty little frost crystals (revealing themselves) on my window pane?

VII.
how it can rain in this city,
for hours on,
drizzling without a sound.
like it were mourning for something,
lost very long ago,
weeping silently,
until it forgot why it was mourning at all.

VII.
it takes courage to write in full sentences,
without riddles and metaphors.
and even when i do write,
i always want to behind letters, punctuations and old sores.

VIII.
i woke up to tears this morning
where did they come from?
and why were they so heavy?
like they were excavating the path they were flowing on.